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looking for someplace buat curhat karena merasa bingung sekali buat curhat *loh??*

last night i cried so hard.. my herat is so hurt .. why?
my husband asked me this morning why i cried last night.., but i just told him that i’m tired.
But honestly is not the reason why i cried last night, last night i’m just feeling so sad.. i’m jealous that’s the one but there’s another reason, i’m feeling alone.. left behind, yes i have friends..but do they remember that i’m their friend? maybe i’m the wrong one, maybe i’m the lazy one the one whose not contact them .. but shouldn’t they do the thing if i’m not?

i’m jealous to husband cos i know that he still do some contact with his ex.. to someone who honestly i don’t like be near him, was i afraid to her? maybe .. cos for all she did and said to me before i’m married with my husband. I’ve told my husband about my jealousy but he didn’t respond, that the thing that make sad and angry ..yes i’m angry to him coz i felt being ignored by the one who i trust most. I’m sure he didn’t means to hurt me, but still i’m a women T_T.

And about friend.. maybe this is all my mistakes, they don’t need me coz before i tried to be a tought woman who can handled all her problem, i barely talk about my problem so i think they think that i don’t need them.. or probably coz each one of them has their own friend or best friend.. so.. why they need me..??

arrrgh this post really not a good post T_T

O GOD.. i really need a friend who can share with me.. a friend that think i’m special for her not just a friend to be ignore before they leaving place even when we were on the same place.. not just a friend for only just symphaty.. is this too much to asking?