Bad habit!!! (atau bagus? )

From the first time i knew about blog.. g pas ngerjain skripsi atau pas kerja, begitu konek internet seperti biasa misi utama yang musti di kerjakan malah terabaikan. Yang ada malah sik baca-baca blog orang ck..ckk..

Like now, ga kerasa niat hati cuma buat browsing bahan kerjaan aja yang biasanya cuma 15 menit-an taunya molor mpe 3 jam !! 3 jam sodara-sodara ..

lah cuma baru 3 jam aja meuni heboh ..

Bukan begitu, 3 jam berarti semakin banyak pulsa telepon yang dipakai buat inet.. secara pake telkomnet, dan secara perekonomian tidak mendukung hiks..hiks.

But, it’s not a waste spending time read a lot of blogs. There’s a lot of things that i got from blogging. Sedikit pencerahan hati, knowledge, tips untuk menjalani hidup .

But sometimes, blogging make jealousy in my heart growth *halah apa sih ini .. *, heart disease *hahaha.. bener teu sih? kan ceritanya penyakit hati * Ngiri, mupeng ma kehidupan orang lain dan kadang jadi rada kurang bersyukur ma yang udah di punya.. loh kok iso?

For example, i ‘ve read about sister who live nun jauh di london sonoh .. ngiri abish, notabene london europe sonoh tapi their life is more islamic than us, Indonesia nyang katenye mayoritas penduduk religionnya islam.
Compare with my life, my daily activity now ..
hiks.. yes i’m wearing hijab *but not real hijab i think .. >_<*.
My daily activity start from 8 until 5, Monday till Friday mostly till Saturday.. bekutat ma kompie, and i’m the only woman *tsaa woman .. * in the team. Yes off course there’s another girl in the office, but in we are different room.

Pegaulan keknya masih jaduh dari pegaulan islami *hiks..* very oposite from what i’ve read from salah satu blog sister, dimana para akhwat will wait outside while some ikhwan prepare for the class, and it’s really-really outside the building.

In my office.. ga jarang only bos and me talking bout works, or sometime I nebeng alias di bonceng ma temen kantor yang jelas-jelas beda jenis *sigh..

i wanna change !!
off course i wanna change, i don’t want to stuck in this kind of life forever *tsaa.. bahasanya bener tak ?*, but.. selalunya yang ada cuma niat tapi prakteknya selalu gagal.

i want talk only when i ‘have’ to talk not when i ‘want’ to talk .. but it’s kind difficult for me, coz selalu aja ada yg perlu aku timpali even it’s not really important.

But maybe .. by blogging i can start to renew my life, maybe the procces berjalan sangat amat lambat for me, but no words for too late right? never stop until the breath is still there *maksudnya selama hayat masih di kandung badan * .

Just fighting!!
and for all the sisters and brother all over the world yang berbaik hati dan kebetulan membaca tulisan ini .. make dua for me, and please..please help me to change, be better person for life and akhirat..